once again

as i said, once i again im sorry for not postin for the past few days, wireless acting up strangely, pfft =/ i have no connection, my photoshop and GimP down, its like, its closed whenever i open it for five seconds, sucks.. LOL, so i have nothing to do, and i decide to do some poem, i know nothing special about it, but if you have time read it okay? ty in advance :)

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Black Petals

A petal as black as night can be
In it's petals nothing you'll see
With thorns sharp,
Your blood melds with the land
The pain of love
Is now known to man
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Fire and Dark

Fire and dark, circling the sky
Fighting all night, unwilling to die
Crushing darkness
Burning flames

Both are unruly
Unable to be tamed

Flames licking singeing wounds
Darkness cringing, hiding within tombs

Darkness will pass,
Flames will grow
Destroying all in the way
Nothing will last

A phoenix's fury
A demon's wrath
Both set upon you

Nothing will last
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Forsaking Fate

The spark of flame lives forever
Across a pathway it completes it's sever

Extinguished by one it roars back to life
Burning embers across the night

A phoenix burns forever alive
Immeasurable power and it will not die

A spark put out flies to another,
Embodying fate,
Forsaking no other
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The Rarest Of Things
The rarest of things
A true friend is
Of false ones i've had
I could make a list

Old friends have gone by
Of them I truly miss

Influencing your life
Helping you to strive
A true friend is rare
This I hope you know
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Three Simple Words

The chance to succeed
If given to few
The chances wasted
Trying to ask you

The feelings I feel
For you i yearn
What i'll say to you
I have yet to learn

Three simple words
Not hard at all
Yet for this man's fate
It may doom us all
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Suicidal Loneliness

Spanning the bridge between life and death
Deciding to take a final breath
Barrel in mouth
Trigger in hand
Choosing to take your final stand

Lonely once more
My forever long bane
Without the comfort of her
How shall I stay sane

It spans the bridge between life and death
While we take our final breaths
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Dark Souls With Blood Stains

My soul dyed dark with blood stains,
My eyes mask a hidden pain

My soul soaked with others death
The sands of time prevent their final breath

My life lives with hidden lies
My world is soaked with crimson skies

Blood splash red, the cries of the dead
Lying on the brink of death,
Love for my self, never another

Blood splash red, crying in my bed
Dark eyes crying to see their final breath
Going as far as to threaten a life

Scum you are, trash I said
After my defeat, I remember crying in my bed

Explosions so close I could feel the heat
With every one dieing, my heart completes the beat
With souls released every battle, and capture their souls forever
With dieing cries of madness, the soulless bodies are incapable of life

I filled their last moments with thought of strife
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Cinders of a Lost Life

Nerves burnt to the point of no healing
The light slowly fades from dull black eyes
Nerves scorched to no feeling
Watch as all the surrounding life dies
Slowly raging as inner turmoil tears minds apart
Shredded thoughts slit from anchors weighted of thought

Scorched minds, cinders left of a personality
Living slightly, deathly, no longer lavishly
Deprived of its needed nourishment it withers
Withers unto smoke rises from the scattered ashes,
Scattered ashes of a once lively idea
The un-cried tears stinging those capable of them

Smoke slowly drifting until it mixes,
Mixes with a mess of blood and sluggish lives

No longer worthy of a host body we are stripped
Stripped of our humanity until only the bare,
The vulnerable flesh remains
No longer capable of ailments or pains
In tempest infernos little survives
The bare essence of a worthless life is denied,
Denied even a host in which to grieve

No grieving we are left to harden,
Harden until the remains of what we were erodes
It erodes and begins the cycle of the cinders of a lost life
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Lazy Ambition

Lazy ambition
Eyes half closed, watching the clouds
Life escaping me

Loveless mind, blank light
Effort expended not worth
Not worth the effort

Shadow of a soul
I leave myself behind with
With nobody near

Lifeless dead shadows
Nearing the death of my life
Lazy ambition
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Losing Their Love

Watching the clouds
Drifting, careless
Watching the clouds
Shifting, loveless

Flexible freedom, no longer tightly bound
Higher life, never lost but never quite found

Without a purpose
Living loveless
Without a purpose
Living lifeless

Missing stability, hardly supporting myself
Yearning for a love, but unable where I dwell

Watching the moon
Fixed, pulsing
Watching the moon
Immobile, loving

Unable to feel the light caress
Unable to embrace all but death’s kiss

Eternal darkness
Forever and dark
Eternal darkness
Impending, and hard

Watching their lives
Slowly fade to nothing
Watching their loves
Slowly grow to everything

Flexible freedom, no longer tightly bound
Higher life, never lost but never quite found

Watching the clouds
Drifting, careless
Watching the clouds
Shifting loveless
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The Same Moon

The sweet sun fading over the silent horizon,
The same moon slowly showing to them each

The secrecy was gone, and the light began to fade
Sliding over us, beyond the others reach,

Quietly rising, through air thick with silent melodies
Full moonlight, only able to please

Suffering the insomnia, the sleepless night
Staring only at the stolen light

On two sides of the world, both can see
The fluid poetry that moves the sea

The luminous orb, floating in air
From both places, they see the other there

Together, separate, single apart
They have but a single heart
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Without Comfort

The world has faded into an eclipse
As someone steals the breath from her lips
The nectar that was us can no longer be
As what was her has now been set free
The night has deepened to a somber dusk
As we no longer know of the bond called trust
The forbidden tears well in my eyes
As the heavens melt to starlit skies

Lonely once more,
My forever-long bane
Without the comfort of her,
How shall I stay sane?

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Untitled

I miss you love,
I wish I was with you
How I’d hold you in my arms
And softly kiss you

Caressing your form
Showing you a loving storm

A flood of passion
A torrent of pain
A severe lack of action
As I stand alone in the rain

Oh how I miss you
And long to kiss you
To hold you in my arms
And protect you from loneliness’ harms

With your voice near my own
I assure you everything’s fine
But when it’s silent
I miss it not being with mine

As I stand alone in the rain
Suffering the torrent of pain
All I can do is endure
Love’s tests of time
To see if I’m worthy to have you mine

apologize

im sorry for not posting yesterday, hehe, im busy, :)

-yesterday, 14th december 2008-

first we go to my cousin house around 9 am, im playing n-a as soon we arrived :) then around 12 my cousin say, she is going to take us to watch "cicakman 2" apa cak cak cak? HAHAHA the movie a bit funny, but boring a bit too, becouse we can see the computer effect, :( then we a go home around 4pm and we play pokerr, yay! hahaha, we play until 6 pm, then my cousin want to eat, so we stop, i continue play n-a and download some render, then around 8pm, we gone home.

-today, 15th december 2008-

today i woke up around 8 am, becouse i got to go to school, taking my PMB slip, ah, many student, i come home around 9:30 am, i checked the book the teacher have give me, then i can't find the "form 4 borang" damn it, i forgot to take it, so i have to go to school tommorow again =/
im bored so i edit some picture for my clan in n-a :)













thats all for today :)

today pmb result?

hello, sorry for not posting tee hee, i watched the earth stood still last night, kinda boring, stupid ending, HAHAHA :D my sister said she going to take us to empire to watch it, but she changed to kiulap mall, huhu. but too many people in kiulap mall yesterday. hahaha

we come back home about 8 pm and im bored, this is what i do when im bored





nice right? hehe :)

ohh, yeah, i heard its gonna be today :/ i hope i get high result :)

dragonball evolution

dragonball evolution trailer is now already out




can wait to watch it :P

and naruto manga episode 428 is out today. :) go to onemanga.com to read it. :)

today

soryy, for not updating, hehehe, to busy, :P today i go to my cousin house and play poker, yay! i haven't play poker for these three days, umph, bored. hahaha, :P we play without using money plg. :D *karang kepisan kalau pkai duit* :P hahaha. currently im waiting for the pmb result. huhu, i heard its gonna be this week, and if its not today, its gonna be saturday, huhu. opps, gtg poker time!! :P later. :D

bad and lucky? hahaha

hello, today i go to limbang, uhh, to many cars.. we go at 7:30 am, and arrive at kuala lurah at 8 am, i sleep along the way to limbang, because i watch MANU v.s SUNDERLAND, and yeah, manu win, hehehe,we arrive at 10 am, and go home around 12pm, nothing much to do, we came home around 2 pm and my auntie call, she invited us to came to her house, then my sister in KB call my mom, she said they will came home tomorrow, *with her husband* hahaha, she said she have a secondhand PSP, and she going to sell it to me, yay! hahaha, at last my own PSP and laptop, but my laptop maybe on february or march, i cant wait =) hehehe, see this



he singing like crazy, hahaha, but funny. hehehe

i made this while wacthing manu v. sunderland, what do you think?



gtg, im going to play poker with my cousin, hehehe, bye ;D

request =)

i got some request from my friend from various countries what do u think? rate ?/10

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i made them in a week, and its a hard work, HAHAHA. rate please... =)

huh..

hello, umm.. sorry for not posting past few days, xD im sick, demam, i don't even touch my hp, hahaha, i just made one new sig..



i think im gonna post in this few days, cos im busy and busy and busy. hahaha. later guys xD

to izza

oh, i almost forgot about izza, here i post some :)
i do it this morning about 6 am? idk.. but here is it, i do it in a rush, and kinda simple, but, here is it :)

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splatter tag:



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i think thats all, anyway rate it, bye bye :)

what a day..

hello, huh.. what a day today.. to many function.. umm.. i go to the soasc's fun fair today, its have to many games, e.g horse riding, flying fox, fishing? hahaha, bowling, umm.. face painting, snake show, ps2 games, umm... i don't remember much, but here some picto, xD







i touch the snake!! hahaha, its cool x) and some girl give us some books, and give a letter to my friend, HAHAHA, its kinda weird, here i take some picture of it,





faizal? my friend is a boy. hahaha, maybe the girl want to throw and instead give it to us, HAHAHA, we msg that number and see who is the boy who give the letter, but he didn't show up, hahaha, umm... i think im gonna rush, my cousin going to have his birthday in RBC this 7pm, so bye bye, :)

29 november 2009

hello, umm.. today i got woke up at 8 and have a breakfast and then i go shower, after that, around 10 am, i turn on my lappy and as usual go to photoshop and do some work,








i have problem doin userbar.. this is what can i do for now,



and its suppose to be like this( moving) ,



here is the tutorial i get for doing it, save the picture, then zoom in to see it clearly :)



okaay, i think thats all for today. byeee ;D

some work ;)

i post some tommorow ;D

wassup x)

hello ;D im new, so tell me if something i must do, ty ;)